People say I'm too mature (my parents brought me up very very strictly), yes, I am, so I have no close friends that I can hang out with. Group work & especially school camps are my greatest fears! Also because of my keen interest in animated movies & other things considered "weird" in my schoolmates' opinions, I just don't fit in. I'd say the teachers are better friends than the students! That's why I'm waiting till year 2010 when I'll be out of school. Perhaps I can start all fresh in college or university, where everyone else loves what I love most.
I seem to have the following symptoms: difficulty concentrating in school & studying, bad sleep patterns, crying spells at least once every fortnight, suicidal thoughts...I've cut myself twice this year, usually after my mum scolded me. I'm never brave enough anymore to tell her my mind is sort of distracted. But she'll go all skeptical & tell me "not to be silly". I'd prefer parents who'll take your side & help you up from there.
The best temporary cure right now is whenever I watch a 3D animated movie. Not even live-action movies will bring me to such a state of peace to make me forget school & the people there. That's why I wish to work in this special industry & perhaps dedicate my life to it! I try my best to pray every day, too. I've also enjoyed drawing since I was four, art helps me relax. But if I neglect homework, I'll be in hot soup with my teachers & parents on my tail.
All I wish I would have right now is a best friend/best friends whom I can study with, draw with, fully enjoy Pixar movies with...
Sadly, my schedule is too tight for me to fit in more exercise activities. Currently I play tennis twice a week but if only I could fit martial arts in too! Martial arts are apparently excellent for improving mental health, I heard. Please help me!
Answer by Jonas J
play martial arts too and never give up, once your eighteen youll be free to do more
Answer by Kai L
Depression is something you have full control of. if your mind is telling you "i am depressed' then thats how your gonna feel, but if you change your mood and go no im not, i appreciate everything in my life such as..... then no. I helped myself with depression by Smiling as much as i could, even when i felt like an idiot and didnt think it was right and would repress all bad thoughts from my mind. Concentrate all bad thorts of yours into something creative such as as you said martial arts, creative writing, making the wrold a better place (what i did( END CHILD SLAVERY!!!)) Plz dont cut yourself, it isnt worth it, you dont live in pain compared to others in the world.... Even tho im a complete stranger, trust me.
You sound like a friend of mine. =) Bia. aNy ways, Love life for everything you can make it as well as how it can make you.
Lots of love
Kai Legend
Answer by the_one1217
i feel ur pain i am going through the same thing my mom doesn't understand and well i watch animated movie's or listen to music to calm my self as well i guess all i can say is don't give up
Answer by Brenna W.
Yes, you sound very depressed! But I can't believe that the other kids would find you "weird" because you like animated movies. I love animated movies, I am actually doing my senior project on it. I want to work for Disney one day.
Keep bugging your parents. Sit them down and talk to them one on one if you havnt already. Show them you are serious about this, and it's their job to do something about it. They are your parents, and they love you. I'm sure they are very busy, but they need to see that you are not happy at all. Keep talking until someone listens to you.
Talk to your counselor. Tell her your problems, she is there to help you. And stick with tennis if you find it helps you. Martial arts is also an excellent sport, my friend used to take it and he really enjoyed it.
Keep trying hard in school. If Pixar really is your passion, then you need an education.
Don't let not having to many friends let you down. I used to have the same problem, I was so shy, but I learned to come out of my shell somewhat and make friends. Just sit down next to people and talk to them during lunch, that is the perfect time to socialize! I have made so many friends just because one day I decided to sit down next to a small group of people. Keep your options open.
Seek help for your cutting problem. Now.
I'm sure that if you tried talking to people, you will find so many people like you :) Surely you can't be the ONLY person who enjoys Pixar movies and likes to draw! I know I do!
Answer by Danica
Hey it seems like we has a very similar childhood experience. My family and I moved a lot during my high school year and coming from Asia to Australia on my teens was a biggest challenge in my life. I barely survive through it and to college. It was hard to be different from everyone. Learning a new language and being shy is my weakness. But I got through it.
Its good that you pray because it helps a lot and try not to compare yourself to others. I know this is easier said than done especially when your in high school. All I can say is that we are all different and just because your different from the rest of the herd it does not mean that your weired.
I know this because after graduating I travelled and worked overseas and to my surprise met so many people who are just like me. People found me adorable and interesting that's because we have so many things in common. Only then I realised that I was in a wrong crowed. I was 27 when I discovered it and learned to accept who I am. I am now back in Australia and have friends who are just like me.
Unfortunately your still in High school and does not have much of a choice who your high schools friends could be. When they call you weired don't take it personally. Being so young neither you or you school mate has not yet seen the real world beside high school. So hang on their buddy you'll get through it. I promise you!
Spend more time doing what you enjoy the most and try not to isolate yourself. Take that martial art lessons and play tennis, go for a run anything that would keep you active. It will help you to stabilize your mood and good for the brain cells ... hehehe. Plus, Stop thinking too much enjoy life in your own way.
Speak to you parents about anything that concerns you. I understand what it's like to live with parents who are always working but you've just got to try and get their attention not by cutting yourself. I'm sure you feel numb inside and just want to feel the pain that your going through. If they don't listen try writing them a letter and see how you go.
Lastly never stop praying I don't have a scientific explanation for it but believe me it helps. All the best and God Bless.
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