I say I want more hours (they cut them in the winter) but when I get the nine hour long shifts I dread them. Most of the time, I sob on my way in to work and have major panic attacks. The only reason I am there is because the pay is decent for cashiering. I used to work in fast food and loved it, I made more money because I had a set schedule and enjoyed the work, even though I was paid considerably less.
I am trying to get out of there but there is nowhere I can go that will guarantee a set schedule (doesn't have to be full time--30 hours a week will do even.) But I have had a history of clinical depression, and my doctor specifically advised that a set schedule is critical to me for mental health. (According to her, a regular sleep pattern will balance my mood.)
I just feel so trapped. I can't really look for a new job because the transition phase alone will kill me and I will get behind on my bills while I wait to get more hours. I don't want to take antidepressants again for fear of harming my baby.
I'm just so scared for my well-being. I'm unstable as is and this job is just making me legitimately suicidal. I stand at my register considering ways to kill myself. I need help.
I'm aware of how life works. And I'm sorry but no matter how good someone has it they will never see it that way. You are not me, do not claim to know me, and don't tell me how shitty life is for other people. Yes, I care about other people, but I do what I can to help them. It is MY turn to be helped. If you're going to be rude, keep your comments to yourself. I am legitimately asking for advice here. Not to be talked down to. You're welcome :)
Answer by Trekd
Find a very small version of what you're working in. If its a huge bank, find a job at a small bank. In very large corporations, you are just a number. In a small company, everyone knows your name.
Answer by Kate Keys
Here's a tip : why don't you go in with a good attitude for a change. Think about other people who have to walk 2 miles to get to school and work, then have to work on the farms all day for little or no pay. Your welcome.
Well sooorryyy, but really? Killing yourself over a job? I think you need a break from it, and a little maturity.
Answer by zebraballerina93
You need to talk to your doctor ASAP. Because even if you don't think so or do, one night you might just be like, "Why the hell not?" and kill yourself and the baby.
Answer by Madison
well if you have a baby on the way really cant kill yourself.Since you are sitting at a desk all day i suggest that you go running or something before you go to work so you will be tired and wont mind sitting as much.As for no respect stand up for yourself. If somewon makes a roughd comment toward you and chasiers then tell them that you dont like it and you are just as immportant as everybody else and their acting like a teenager insulting people.and try to get some you time so you arent as stressed or suicidal.Hope this helps.
Answer by Emily
wait it out until the baby is born for a few months while your wife/gf is pregnant then after everything is settled look for a new job that doesn't make you miserable and in the meantime look forward to your child's birth and talk out your issues with someone who knows you well or a therapist...good luck with being a daddy!
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