1. A receptive routine that's fairly stable and normal, school, relationships and day to day activities are fine. This is where i feel 'normal' and secure.
2. Boredom, depression and hopelessness start to from around my life tasks and hygiene, self esteem and relationships with particular key people diminish (people close to me and emotionally vital) best friends, mum, girlfriend. sometimes this list is endless and sometimes it can be absent altogether depending on the severity of my last cycle.
3. I become completely absent from life mentally and disconnect from everything, cutting ties with everything and destroying opportunities and effectively melting my life away, i do this to break from the routine but its worse as it leaves me in increasingly difficult situations and with me becoming more responsible and growing up the knock on effect gets worse every time and the consequences I fear will become long term. The longest this phase has ever lasted was about 7 months. bullying also starts to happen and i get heightened paranoia as a result and trust issues with family.
4. I get a ultra-high boost to my morale, confidence, self esteem, sexual performance and sex drive, problem solving, vocabulary and vocal skills. I could talk for hours on end without stopping. I become very quick witted and humorous, often "winning back" friends or gaining a whole new list, i've stopped referring to them as friends because i don't know if that's the real me or just a flashy new ego. I become increasingly popular and sometimes its so alarmingly fast i cant believe no-ones notices. I naturally have a fast metabolism and i begin to over eat especially if i have to sit around for more than 10 minutes. i feel as if i have to prolong this amazing feeling so i indulge in caffeine and energy drinks, which i cant drink because i get migraines suffer blurry vision in some cases. I don't sleep often during this and i get up earlier than usual. I dress eccentrically and over motivation causes me to take up hobbies i wouldn't normally be interested in. I multitask exceedingly well and often find im talking to 3+ people on facebook chat while text and maybe playing xbox. I over estimate my free time and my day ends up saturated with multitasks. i get a overwhelming desire to draw and create and take pictures, in my last cycle i opened up a deviant art account and bought three months premium http://splozy.deviantart.com/
this phase may last anywhere up to 2 weeks before i slow down and begin to settle into a routine again. It also comes out of nowhere really fast and nothing seems to trigger it.
Please help, i do recognize they're may not be something wrong with me but its something i cant break out from. they're is a history of mental health issues on my dads side of the family.
The more and more i look at this cycle the more it looks like a drug addiction and when i first started experiencing it, it did feel great to be able to knock everything down to rebuild it again.
Its all ready started to ruin my life and im surprised i still have a girlfriend for that matter.
thank you for being able to read it...
Answer by 2blest2Bstrest
Sounds like bi-polar disorder which is very common and very treatable w/ meds AND talk therapy. Please get help so that you (and others around you) can have better quality of life.
God bless you
Answer by Jason Syble
You should seek intense therapy, possible an in-patient treatment facility. But make sure that you speak with a therapist, sometimes it helps to talk things out and it is best to have someone supportive, or at least experienced as the listener. Good luck. Try to remain positive although it is hard.
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