I am aware that in order to obtain a diagnosis I need to be assessed by a psychologist, but my community psychiatric nurse is very reluctant to let me see another one of those to have a second opinion. This is why I would greatly appreciate if anyone had advice on how to get my CPN to take me seriously and get a second opinion, or if they can identify with either recurrent depressive disorder or Borderline personality disorder, and let me know if you think my symptoms fit into to either of those diagnosises.
I am now 19 and since the age of 14 I always been 'different' from other people. I self harm, have bouts of suicidal ideation, and severe moodswings (lasting from minutes to about a day), along with symptoms like low mood, no energy, difficulty interacting with family and friends to the point where I now only talk regularly to my fiance who puts up with me somehow! I think in black and white terms, for example, I have either been successful at something or I have failed miserably - there is no inbetween. I cannot seem to control my emotions and often react inappropriately (almost like a child), but have a desperate need to be with the people I choose to attach myself to, and are paranoid that they are going to leave etc.
I cannot direct my life in any direction for any length of time, and so I find myself constantly thinking of new goals and targets which inevitably I don't achieve or lose interest in, where upon those will fizzle out and I will try to replace them with others. This is very much the same for my view of myself - I feel very empty for a lot of the time as though I don't know who I am, but sometimes I'll look in the mirror and be okay with myself, and although I doubt I will have changed the next time I look in the mirror, my opinion is completely different and unpredictable.
Because of all of these symptoms, my life is currently on hold. The last time I had friends was when I was about 16/17 but even before then I would feel great and be the life and soul of the party for a couple of weeks to a month, and then be a recluse and feel that I could not possibly talk to them or see them. Because of my unpredictability and my lack of trust in people, all my friends fizzled out like my goals in life. I keep starting things but cannot continue them for any number of reasons related to this, and am despairing completely at this moment in time as I cannot see a future for myself at all, and would not bother to be here if my fiance wasn't putting in the effort to stay with me and try to help me through.
If anyone has any advice, even on how I can handle my emotions etc. I would really appreciate it.
Thankyou.
Answer by Judy & Charlie
I think the diagnosis of recurrent depression or Major Depression is correct.
I am going to prescribe therapy for you....get a job, start functioning as an adult and stop feeling sorry for yourself.
Answer by DoDo
I was diagnosed with BOTH major depression - recurrent - and borderline personality disorder. A clinical psychologist came up with this diagnosis first and a psychiatrist later confirmed it. So it is possible to be diagnosed with both. I am, however, no success story as I have yet to find medication that agrees with me and the personality disorder is not treated with medication and I have yet to find the right talk therapist, but I am working on it. I attend several groups and have hope for the future. My symptoms are very similar to yours. My best advice is to avoid self medicating with drugs and/or alcohol. My experience is that this only creates additional problems. Try emotions anonymous.
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