I haven't tried to kill myself; and I never would because I could never do that to my family. But I do think about it way too much. Along with that, I'm extremely critical of myself. So much that I've lost all self confidence and positive imagine. Instead, I avoid people because I I feel inferior to everyone, I'm always stressed, I'm not motivated and never want to get out of bed in the morning and start my day, my college grades have dropped dramatically because I psych myself out that I'm going to fail and then I can't concentrate or focus on anything. My counselor asked if I have any hobbies; and I really don't. I don't find enjoyment in things anymore so I gave up any previous hobbies that I've had.
I typically am a good student. I'm a hard worker and I've got business sense. When I get out of college I'll be successful at what I do. That is, if I can control my problems. I've tried to ignore them for a long time, but realize I need to fix them otherwise I wouldn't be able to live up to my potential and probably lose many friends because of my anti-social tendencies. Because I do want to get better, I am willing to do the therapy, and even the mental health institute if need be.
But the thing I'm worried about is life after the institute. I've worked as an government employee for the National Park Service for four years and want to after I graduate from college. Will I have trouble getting a job with this on my record; or any other job for that matter? I realize this would all depend on my college; but do you think this would set me back in college? I've heard the average stay at an institute is 30-60 days. I'm a recreation and tourism major. It's basically business management for outdoor facilities such as the park service. Pretty much the outdoors version of the business field. A lot of my classes do with legal aspects and how to not get sued for your programs you develop.
It's not so much the fact that being admitted to a facility like this that bothers me; it's the affects it will have later on me such as finding a job. Do you think this would present an issue?
Answer by Whitegrass
yea, life sucks, its true, it would present an issue, try to work your problem yourself
Answer by VisionQuest
Sorry to hear about your trouble, but it's clear you are bright and smart, and you are right to look after yourself. You'd go to ER to get a broken leg examined and fixed, or have toothache taken care by dentist. Mental health issues are still something people think need to be kept quiet and hidden, but they really shouldn't be.
Many people I know have "something" in the past, whether they have been in jail, mental institute etc. something that they like to keep to themselves.
Talk to your therapist and ask how long you'd need to stay in an institute/hospital, if at all- would you be ok with outpatient clinic appointments?
Regarding suicidal thoughts, get to know your therapist, ask what to do if these thoughts become too much to handle on your own, where do you go or if there is anyone to call at the time?
Like you said, you'd not kill yourself (because of your family), so make a promise to Yourself and your therapist NOT to kill yourself and honor this promise. Whatever is in your mind right now, I don't know the whole story, but your therapist is in a good position to help you and the answer is not necessarily a stay in hospital.
Best thing is to talk, get an emergency contact number and contact them before things get so bad that you feel you have nowhere to go.
If you need hospital treatment, ask your therapist about how it would affect your college studies, future employment etc.
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