What's going on in my brain?This may be a little lengthy...so bare with me. I'm 18, female and can't figure out what is going on with me. Let me tell you a little about myself...always been a happy person, loved my family, loved being around friends, loved going on adventures. I was the type of person who could get excited about finding a penny on heads. I was always the positive one giving advice about how not to let the small things get to you and to just live life the best way possible! Well at the end of my Junior year in high school, me and my boyfriend broke up, i dropped out of high shool and haven't done much with my life since except sleep in until noon. That lasted about a year and then summer hit and over the summer, i had a really fun time, pretty much did whatever i wanted, partied and ran around in the sun. And then September rolled around and all my friends went away to college and I started dating my boyfriend again and I realized that I had no real purpose anymore. I started sleeping in until noon again, waking up, hanging out with my boyfriend, going home, rinse, repeat, blah blah blah. Well the stress kept building and building and building how unhappy i am with life and how I need to do something because sitting around everyday is driving me crazy. Well this is where it starts. About two months ago is when it all started. I woke up one morning and was in instant panic, I threw up and continued on feeling anxious, for the next couple of days I felt so on edge, I felt like I needed to run ten miles because my mind was going so fast, I couldn't make sense of anything. I never felt this way in my life. So my mom took me to the hospital and they examined me and said it was anxiety and possible depression. So I then followed up with my primary health care provider who prescribed me anti-anxiety medication as well as anti depressants. Well, i have been so terrified from how i'm feeling that I looked up my medications before taking them. And i read all these awful side effects and then I began to google for hours every day and night for the past three weeks about what could be wrong with me and what to do. I tried to take the medications but would shake and get sick from being so scared to take them. So I tried to just get out and exercise and do things with friends or family, but everything seems to get worse. Leaving my home is so hard because i'm constantly in my brain trying to figure out what is wrong with me. People notice that I seem off. And now i've read about all these mental illnesses online and I think i've tricked myself into believing i have all of them. I developed so many weird fears that i never used to be scared of. It's like all the sudden, all the philosophies I used to find intriguing, everything from the sky to water, our minds, earth, it's all clouding me. And i'm actually so wound up and over-analyzing so badly that i'm freaked out by absolutely everything. My mind is in such a daze, I just sit in my room all day long and don't do anything anymore, everything disturbs me. I hate hearing people talk to me, I get so aggitated and paranoid. And I am so freaked out.All the sudden i feel scared of Art and Math, Mirrors, puzzles, how we have the ability to do anything. I know it sounds absolutely crazy, but i could swear I'm not insane. I don't hallucinate, I don't hear voices. I just feel so odd, there is nothing that could comfort me in the past two months. I feel uncomfortable around anyone and nearly everything. Any idea's what the problem is? If i'm suffering from some unknown mental health issue i'm unaware of? Maybe I am crazy? Why can't I just go back to being a normal person who worries about what's for dinner and normal everyday things that are normal! I miss being the person I used to be. Why am I scared of myself and every single thing around me?
Answer by Christoopher
Stop taking medicine yu dont need it.yu just need to calm down.try to remember what makes yu happy and forget everything thats happened.its gonna take strength to get past what happened to you.But yu gotta remember theres nothing to be scared of.
maybe smoke weed.thats how i get most of my questions answered.it opens my mind.... Best of Luck
Answer by sal
You need to talk to a therapist. Discuss everything, including your reasons for not wanting to take meds, she can help you figure out whats really wrong, and give you tools to solve things.
Answer by wishnuwelltoo
Print your question and take it to your medical doctor. There could be 100 medical reasons you are feeling this way, from diabetes, to high blood pressure to inner ear or sinus issues to a diet with too much junk food. It would be wrong of us to just guess things and possibly project an issue on you that you don't have. Rule out something medical first.
Answer by Bridget Chanel
To be honest, you're freaking yourself out. And you know it. The world is a big, scary place and no one knows what they're doing here! But if you think about it a lot, it will overwhelm you. Most people don't focus solely on that, and that's why they're okay.
I know what it's like not to feel normal. I have anxiety and severe clinical depression. I know that the side effects of the medication scares you, but let me tell you from experience; medication works. These are professionals, who are trying to HELP. No one wants to see you get hurt, and no one wants to see you in a bad condition. The medicine may scare you, but if you could tell yourself that it's there to help you, it will work. It worked for me.
Think about it this way: you hate how you're feeling right now. What's the harm in trying something that could help you get back to normal? Side effects of anti-anxiety and anti-depression medications are usually headaches or loss of appetite or loss of sexual desire, etc. If you FEEL worse when you're on the medication, stop taking it. But at least give it a chance. There's a WIDE variety of medications out there; I had to try 3 before I found the one that worked best for me. Please, help yourself, cooperate with the people who love you and care about you. You WILL get better.
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